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> The divine message is clear: you’re already there, so take action. As you move forward, expect signs of happiness, a fulfilling home life, and the rewards of wealth and positivity. It’s a time when the challenges of the past are fading away, and the Universe is showering you with blessings. Embrace the prosperity, joy, and optimism within your grasp, as achievements and friendships blossom around you.

I've done this in all the ways I can see. That said, one of the prayers/affirmations I assert daily is:

I’m open to seeing what I’ve been missing.

I'm faced, currently, with a number of challenges. One is dealing with a type of controlling, manipulative person very similar to what my father was. He was but the most recent embodiment of a line of woundedness and toxicity stretching back for some time.

My mother was steamrolled by this, and indeed had been stripped of her autonomy by the society, religion, and family of origin she was born into. As she was unable to protect herself, I, her eldest son, stood in for her, drawing fire in the process. I longed for her to, one day, return to favor, but she never did. Mom did not want to be a wife and mother, and her mom did not, either. Our roles were reversed, and I cared for her as a daughter throughout her life.

I volunteered and came as a stranger to these lines to stem the tides of these deeply unhealthy legacies. I have done this work for all these years. I see, now, that this current opportunity - and others like it - help me to "untwist" from what I had to become in stepping into these shitstorms-in-progress, so that I can return - as much as possible in physical form - to my true nature of love, light, peace, and joy.

It continues to be hard going. Though I remain shrouded to those who were taught to view me a certain way, I feel, at certain moments, the deep love, joy, and gratitude that my life brings not only to the legions of these lines of strangers, but to my true family in Spirit.

In fact, this first "mission" of this incarnation doubles as training for the second, which brings me into sweet reunion with my sisters, as they do the heavy work in the macro that I have been doing in the micro.

As I face the current situation as squarely and honestly as I can, I've been taking time to reground in my heart, so that I can come from a place of truth and fairness, but above all, love for myself. I have been engaged in exhaustive re-parenting of myself, as neither of my parents had any love to give.

In doing so, I strive to neither capitulate nor attack reactively nor allow the person to cause me to take to myself her view of life, currently projected onto me.

Though I do not know the feeling of physical, human family "having my back," I know that those in Spirit do. Indeed, not long ago, I was allowed to experience my mission briefing from just before I "parachuted" in, behind enemy lines, as it were.

My dear General looked at me, her beautiful, bottomless, black eyes becoming misty, and said:

"You will feel alone, and it has to be that way, for you to remain You, accomplish your first mission, and prepare as you need to for your second. If you were loved by those you serve among as a stranger - especially if you were loved by your mom in this group - you would be in limbo, torn in half, so to speak.

"What I say now, I wish you could remember during those many hard years, or that I could write it on your skin, or put it in your pocket. Son, you DO have a home, you DO have a family, and you are SO loved."

What a remarkable thing to have answered such large calls in a frail human form that, unsurprisingly, shows the strain of the weight. I long for a pleasant, peaceful time, a chance to experience the "plus" side of life in a body, so unfamiliar to me.

It's in this context that I receive your words:

> As you move forward, expect signs of happiness, a fulfilling home life, and the rewards of wealth and positivity. It’s a time when the challenges of the past are fading away, and the Universe is showering you with blessings. Embrace the prosperity, joy, and optimism within your grasp, as achievements and friendships blossom around you.

And so it is; Amen; Àṣẹ, Goddess Renell.

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